dramatic ramblings

Sometimes i feel like I’m in a perpetual identity crisis (and other times i feel like I’m not sure how you spell perpetual). Then i think that i remember reading or hearing somewhere that everyone feels like that at least once in their life. Probably more. Hopefully more. I don’t like to think of myself as so completely detached from the normal (here someone would pipe up that there is no such thing as normal, and i am going to ignore this person for now).  Anyway the point is lately I’ve been feeling like this a lot. 

It’s not so much the "who am i?" "What am i like?" sort of crisis. Maybe it’s better described as a worry about what i am to become. What will i do with myself since i am here and since i have a brain and all the right appendages and senses? The advice i am most often given, when talking about careers is "do something you enjoy", the goal being you will live for work, rather than working to live. I’m told that this is the greatest success will ever be able to achieve. For me this advice is horrible. Well, not horrible but useless to me, because to use it I should have 2 things. 

I should be able to have some kind of talent, skill or great love for something that was embedded into my soul or something.  That i just don’t have. If you asked me what is it that you most love, I’d tell you I just don’t know. I quite like wasting time on the internet and superhero movies and video games and general low level geekery. I wouldn’t say i love any of those things. I have no deep and burning passions to be involved in those industries either. Not to mention I’m missing the second thing.

The second thing is skill. The way the world is shown to me tells me that most successful people have a skill. Something they are just good at. Ok sometimes it will take a boat load of practice, but they will be good at practising it. They won’t just get frustrated and annoyed and, to be honest, a bit bored by it. They just want it. They have the passion, the love, so strong for it they just can do it. 

It strikes me that in some ways you can’t be expected to have one of these without the other. it also strikes me that i don’t think I’ve ever met a person who has either and i don’t thinks that’s by coincidence. 

So either the vast majority of people are not successful, or the definition of successful that I’ve been given is false. My head goes with the "it’s false" option. Because if most people don’t live is this world where they have their perfect job to match their loves and skills. I don’t think i really believe we have inherent skills and loves when we are born. You can’t be born to work in an office for a company that sells cardboard. That’s insane. 

                                                                                                       

Despite knowing this i can’t help but flounder around wishing i could find my deep passion. The thing i could do, and do so well and be so happy doing. Maybe it’s because I’m only 19 and just accepting now that this world i was told about was a lie, that i just wish it could be true.

I’m struggling to come up with a coherent end to this ramble, because it’s gone off in a direction i wasn’t expecting it to. Add blogging to this list of things i have no inherent skill for. END

p.s. spell check didnt correct all my little i's into big I's but i cant be bother to fix it since this post is so rubbish anyway.

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now I just feel full of whimsy. I dont really know why

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this is how ive felt all day.

i think ive done a good job suppressing it. you're welcome

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Narrow boat holiday 9-16th july

Narrow boat holiday 9-16th july, a set on Flickr.

If you had to sing karaoke for your friends, what song would you pick?

OHMYGODOHMYGOD you cant jsut spring that question on someone! goodness there are so many songs i could do! born this way, anything by abba, hit me baby, its raining men, i predict a riot.
so many songs.

i wish i knew people who were into karaoke.

also if you dare google my name and "its raining men" you will encounter only pain if you find what im thinking of. so dont.

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vulnerability

This post comes as a response of sorts to the most recent episode of the glee project, although to be honest it’s not really about the show but more about the theme. Just for those (i imagine the majority) who don’t know what I’m talking about, the show is like Americas next top model, but instead of competing to be a model its competing for a role in Glee. This week’s theme is what I really wanted to talk about. Vulnerability. 

They asked the people in the show to advertise their vulnerability because that’s a big theme for glee and a good way to get to understand a person. Why does he feel vulnerable? The answer can show you a great huge part of what makes a person. I think it seemed like a healthy thing to do as well, to acknowledge what is it that makes you feel the worst, or the most broken about yourself. So then i thought, what would I have said?

It took me the whole episode, and then a bit longer, too really fall on the answer that I think is true, but I’m not sure if it could have been put into the one word they were looking for. It’s not that I’m gay. I don’t feel like that makes me vulnerable, i don’t feel like i have any personal or dark issues surrounding it like some people do. I’m not frightened of being gay; I got over that feeling a long time ago, if I ever felt it at all. For a while I felt maybe I shared Damien’s feeling of being numb, but I don’t think I really do feel any less than other people (and Damien shows later that he doesn’t either) 

So here is how I came to the truth of it. I just feel like a don’t fit in with people. I hate meeting new people, I can’t talk to people who i don’t feel like I know very well, and i guess this just comes from a strong feeling that I am a strange person. I worry about being judged, and that people will think I’m just too weird and want me to go away. There are so many things I could list that make me abnormal and in my mind they are things that are so big and important that they make me incapable of even being in the company of normal people. I think I just hate myself. I couldn’t even explain what it is that i hate, that makes me think I have no business even getting involved in other people’s lives. 

Once, when I was trying to egg myself on into coming out to my family, I had this msn conversation with a friend who I had already come out too. I said that it felt like all my life I felt different, I didnt know why, but I knew I had to protect myself from it. So a built a wall, a defence system around it. I just wanted to fit in, as everybody does. Then I realise what it was that I had built the wall for. It didn’t occur to me overnight, but after a long time I had to accept it. I was gay. But the walls stayed up. Now they weren’t for keeping that part of me away, for I had accepted that it wasn’t possible for me to do that. Now it was keeping me safe. It had always been keeping me safe from prejudice, I just didn’t know it before now. I said that I knew that to break down the wall, to come out, was not dangerous. I knew it, my family are accepting, my friends were accepting, and I’m in no danger to stop hiding. 

This revelation helped me to bite the bullet. But I think the defensive structure is still there. I feel like I tell myself that I should avoid social situations, because I’m still afraid of being shunned. Not so much because I am gay, but just because I have always felt like I’m different in such a way that might cause people to hate me. Now I know that I’m not (as far as the people I care about goes) but I still can’t shake that feeling. That I am bound to outcasted. That I am unlovable. I feel like i will live a friendless life and i will die alone, and i don’t know what i can do about it because I’m so much more frightened being rejected. 

I’ve always been lazy, and the easy option is to turn myself away from people, because it will take much less effort. I never allowed myself to learn how to be around new people, how to make friendships. Learning how to do that is a huge hurdle that I will need to face. But the real reason is that it seems like the safer option. Don’t give people a chance to turn you away, and save yourself from the humiliation and the hurt. 

Perhaps I have fallen a bit of topic. I’ve been typing out my thoughts as I thought them so sorry if it’s a bit of a mess to read. The point is though the thing that makes me vulnerable, the thing I would have put on my sign, is that I am ... do you know what? I’m still not even sure how to put it in a word. I am afraid of rejection, I am insecure for no tangible reason, and I feel like no one could ever love me. It’s not that I don’t know that I am lovable. I know that I am good, funny and no stranger than any other person in the world. I know it, but I just can’t feel it. That is what makes me feel vulnerable. 

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What TV show character do you relate to the most?

the blue ranger.

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Re: breaking down

while im here, i thought it would be a good time to point out that i have yet to do any of the things i planned to do in "Breaking Down" but i have found some new time sinks, so its all fine I havent gone mental. or atleast, im not any more mental than usual.

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I said it was a bad idea.

I tweeted about this idea, someone said it would be funny, so i did it. heres the recipe: take the questions froma random interview, remove the awsers and fill them in yourself.

For this first (and probably last) edition: New magazine's blue interview (with a few questions removed because it didn't make sense) let me know if you liked the idea, I happy to take requests over what to do on this blog.

It’s good to have you back, boys, but Eurovision – really?

Well, first of all thanks, I didn’t even realise I had gone, but to answer the question, yeah I quite like Eurovision.

Are you scared of getting “nul points”?
Oh, no well I wouldn’t ever compete in it, I can’t sing or dance.

Would you have signed up if the voting system hadn’t changed?
Um, I just said I didn’t sign up?

And Jedward are representing Ireland in the competition…
that’s already happened, they were alright they had a catchy song.

So, will you beat them?
Hey look, I know they are annoying but I could never condone violence, especially over something so trivial.

Antony, do you think you’ll, err, pee all over the competition?
Erm, just Tony actually, but no, like I said I’m wouldn’t compete.

Are you scared Eurovision could end in disaster? Your former manager, Daniel Glatman, said anything less than a win will leave your reputation in tatters…

Well he always was incredibly pessimistic, I’m not even doing it how could it ruin me? And what is there to ruin anyway? A few blog posts and an unreasonable amount of tweets? I’ve got like 12 followers I’m hardly a public figure.

Will you trawl internet forums to gauge fans’ reaction?
Fans reaction? Look if I wanted that to know what my mum thought I’d just ask her.

What’s your favourite Eurovision song?
Flying the flag. It’s brilliant.

Antony, this is your second stab at Eurovision glory, isn’t it?
Tony, and no I’ve not done Eurovision, and I never will.

So, are you all going to start working out to get in shape?
HA no I love cake too much to bother with that.

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What's the funniest joke you know?

do you know that you hear jokes all the time and some says "tell us a joke" and you mind goes completely blank? yeah, well that. before i really understood how jokes worked i remeber laughing till it hurt at "knock knock, whos there, polar who, polar bear." thats probably the hardest i ever laughed. clearly you had to be there. and also you had to be five years old or something.

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If you were in a rock band what would you name it?

The Targaryens. our first single is called "HEY! (i dont want to eat that!)" and our second will be called "drogo loco" the album shall be named "melted gold crown of death" the cover art, a dragon riding a horse.

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What are your plans for the summer?

the same thing we do every summer pinky, try to take over the world.

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If you could only eat at one fast food restaurant the rest of your life, which one would you choose?

ooooooh, thats so hard a question im not even going to answer it. instead why not enjoy this theme tune from a theme park ride: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uFkBHZnJqNU&feature=related mmm its lovely.

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Breaking Down

I suppose for me to properly be able to describe what it is want to describe it is important first to establish the facts. From this you will hopefully see it as i see it, even if i an unable to make you understand. 

Since the 28th of May I have been living in some strange... state of mind. That day was the day, having finished the first year of university, and with no work left over for completion before September, I moved out of Canterbury and back home. I have been invariably sleeping dead into the afternoon, between 2 and 3 o' clock as an average, and not sleeping until, well its 2:30 now and i won’t be asleep at 4. I get up often with just enough time to, i dunno, empty the dishwasher, wash up a bit, iron maybe, do some sort of housework so as to appease my parents (and more importantly to me the feeling of guilt i get if i do literally nothing as opposed to next to nothing). 

On the 28th of May i was asked "what will i do for all that time?", all that time being the 3 months until term starts (never say degrees are value for money). I said I’d be fine, i love doing nothing. Unfortunately nearly 4 weeks in and i think i was wrong. 

This is the thing i wanted to describe. Living like this, with nothing to do, no real reason to do anything, no motivation... I’m going slowly insane. We went to a harvester yesterday. I started singing in the car park, i was still singing to myself hours later. This is not normal for me, a chronic hermit. I can’t imagine how much I’m annoying my family, but judging but how quickly we get into arguments this week, i think it’s reasonable to say that i must be very. 

when I’m not being plain weird, I’m being, well i guess I’m being myself, in that i revert back into cyberspace, flicking between websites, just 5 of them, again and again, despite the fact nothing’s changed for half an hour on any of them. Eventually i get so mind numbingly bored i stop even that and just, stare. 

I can’t go on like this so i propose to myself now a 3 part plan. 

Part one is to stop being nocturnal. That motivation to get out of bed to do nothing is quite hard to find, but it’s something that i will have to do. It really shouldn’t be so hard to wake up at 9 everyday, so that’s my first target. Wake up at 9, even on weekends (because every day is a weekend if you have no job) 

Part 2 is to give myself a long term goal. If i cant motivate myself because i have nothing to do, i must give myself something to do. I’ve already decided I’m going to learn how to ride a bike. (There are flaws to this one, such as the need for someone to do this with Me. details, details)

Part 3 is to think of short term goals. Why just get out of bed to stare 5 websites repeatedly? I don’t know what these will be but I’m thinking i need things to do every day, like wash the kitchen floor, hoover or even watch all the star wars films again. 

So there you go. That’s the plan. It’s a bad plan. It’s based mainly on thinking, what do i need? And then hoping that those needs will be fulfilled. Will i be able to think of something to do every day for a month? How about 3? I’m not convinced. At least I’ve got some things to look forward too, like narrow boat holiday and a trip to chesington. 

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What's the worst injury you've had, and how did it happen?

i dont think ive ever had a bad injury. the benefits of having no desire to go anywhere include a great deal of safety. the furthest ive fallen is off a chair.

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What's the biggest lie you've ever told and gotten away with?

well the obvious one before coming out and being in secondary school having to say that i wasnt gay. the stand out moment being "hey guys, please stop calling me gay because obviously im not" said to my, at the time, best friends.

(which raises the issue "your best friends called you gay as an insult?" "yes thats true, but everyone did it in our school. i caught myself doing it just because i heard it used like that so much, something im ashamed of now. but if i had to go back in time i wouldnt have stopped being friends with the people i were friends with, they supported me when i did come out and only one of them really meant it homophobicly but i think i changed his view on it when i told him about me. )

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If you were given the money to start a new business, what business would you open?

god this is a hard one. in a dream world? a chocolate/ smart phone business. because i love both of those things. being around a whole bunch of them would be amazing. OR A THEME PARK! in real life? i dont hink im really cut out for business. maybe a small time coffee shop. i can make the cakes. i like baking.

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What color do you want your dinosaur to be?

green

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When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up?

taller. hahaha no. postman pat.

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Please stop sending the chain questions/comments...they are pretty dumb!

i didnt do that! rudeness.

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Harry Potter and The Memories That Will Last a Life Time

It’s an exaggeration to say that Harry Potter has been a big part of life; I don’t think I would be different without it. But it is true to say this phenomenon, both books and films, has been with me for so long it’s hard to remember i time i didn’t know Harry's name. The emotional ties I have to this are stronger than anything equivalent to this. It’s a special thing to have the security of knowing that friends I grew up with will, in these films and books, be here forever and unchanged, reminding me of things i might otherwise forget, like having our teacher read to us from the first book, going to see the third movie during a caravanning holiday, going off into the car with those who were reading the 7th book in the days after it came out to compare reactions. It’s nice to have these memories, not memories of Harry Potter, but memories of childhood into teen into 19 years old and being at university. It is with great fondness that in 50 days’ time, when the last link between my life and Harry is cast, I along with the millions of others will look back on what was a series of 7 children’s books and 8 films that have become some of the best and most treasured memories we will ever possess.

Just saw your answer to what tree would you be, omg it made me really laugh, some of your answers do amuse me!!! :)

aw thank you. :)

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Who inspires you the most?

r2 d2.

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how do you whip your hair back and forth when you have such short hair?

you just have to act like you do. its all about the swag.

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whats your signature dance move?

I WHIP MAH HURR BACK AND FORTH I WHIP MAH HURR BACK AND FORTH

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what size feet do you have?

this big *does hand gesture*

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If you wrote your autobiography, what would the title be?

sitting down: the few adventures of a sedentary life

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if you could be a tree what tree would you be?

a willow tree. "I WHIP MY BRANCH BACK AND FORTH I WHIP MY BRANCH AND FORTH"

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What's your biggest pet peeve?

when your cock is so long you have to use two hands when you pee. so annoying.

and lieing, thats a big peeve too.

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What's your favorite app on your computer or your phone?

on phone, the one i use most is seesmic. i wouldnt call it my favourite, but its the most useful.

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What ice cream flavor describes your personality the best?

seriously? is that a real question? what are you craig david?

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What historical figure would you most like to meet?

hmm i dont know... #boringresponse

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What's your favorite quotation?

Irony is the gaiety of reflection and the joy of wisdom- Anatole France

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You're awesome. =)

i know i am. i dont know why you are anon, perhaps you are ashamed of finding me awesome? because you should be.

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What historical time period would you most like to visit?

i dunno, im pretty sure the best time to have ever been alive is right now.

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A 4yr old boy went missing in heaton park yesterday he was wearing shorts and a thomas tank top and jelly shoes, If seen ring 07876355234 please pass this on to all your followers and send the message out to your friends, his parents are really worried

i doubt any of my lot can help, but you never know.

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What's the story behind your Formspring username?

i cant remember what its is, but if its tonythenerd its because im a nerd and if its tony_1002 its because i decided tonythenerd was a bit shit as a username. im not sure if i still think that, but i dont want to go to the trouble of changing everything back.

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What's your favorite sport to play?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHhahhahahahahaha roflmao. good one formspring.

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doctor what?

This blog contains spoilers for day of the moon. You have been warned. 

I’m just going to say it. I did not like this 2 parter. It did some things right, but i felt underwhelmed after it was billed with such a big hype. 

Firstly, i never get along with anything that leaves too many things unanswered. It just feels to me like they couldn’t be bothered to think of an answer, so they left it blank. That’s probably not the case this time, but the ratio of questions to answers in these two episodes just left me a bit annoyed. Who kills the doctor? Is she pregnant? Why can’t the tardis decide? What’s the real reason she didn’t tell Rory? Who is the little girl? I guess she was important because she was a time lady, but then why was she there? 

Whereas what got answered? Only 2 questions, left over from last series, what is the silence, and how do they get rid of it. Both of those, quite underwhelming. I didn’t find the silence very interesting and the way the doctor hypnotises humans into killing all of them (if indeed none of them manage to escape) is borderline ridiculous. Would the doctor really turn us all into weapons like that? I don’t know seems a bit heartless. Clever though, I'll give it that. 

Anyway there you go. My boring thoughts. Let’s leave this all behind us now and hope that the curse of the black spot can be as good as the curse of the black pearl. So long as it’s not as tedious as at worlds end. 

[edit. ive just thought of some more questions its left out. why did the silence need the space suit? and why did that time engine end up on james cordon's flat in the lodger? ]

i wanted to blog or something

[i wrote this out as a tumblog but you'll see as you read that i changed my mind]

But i don’t really have much to say. I need to write though, so I’m going to "blog" here rather than on my proper wordy blog. I’m not even sure if this is something that needs to be read, it’s just something that needs to be said. Oh, a rhyme, I’m a poet and i didn’t even realise. 

I don’t know why but today, or mainly tonight, I’ve felt a bit more cut off than usual. That makes no sense as, since the wedding and everything, I’ve tweeted loads, got more than a usual amount of replies and stuff today. I still feel a bit like I’m shouting into a hole and the hole is full of people who aren’t listening. And i know that’s not the job of other people, to be interested in me and what i say. If you are interested then you are, but you can’t force yourself to be any more than i can force you.

Still though i think it’s had an effect on me. All this opportunity to voice your mind. You have every chance of to say what you’re thinking, and every chance that a bunch of people will have the chance to read it. But then, everyone else has those same chances so everyone is shouting into the hole. Maybe it’s silly then that i still feel sadness whenever i realise that nobody is really listening. Or maybe they are, but they have no interest in you. They might read your thought, smile or frown or whatever and then move on with their lives. 

But there’s no interaction. Not really, and even though i know this to be the case my heart still craves the attention. I long for retweets, i do, it’s sad to say it but i do. Everyday i check to see, and most days I’m disappointed. Every day that goes by it hurts a little bit more to see that no matter how much you give yourself, nobody cares. Every dailybooth with no comment, every @reply left unanswered every tumbl left with no notes. Hell even a facebook status unliked. It’s all saying the same thing. Nobody cared today. Try again tomorrow.

It’s my fault, of course, for placing so much importance to it. Why should i care that the anonymous follower doesn’t react to what i tweeted, blogged or boothed?

Just because it’s a stupid thing to care about, doesn’t mean you don’t care about it.

And now i feel like i should apologise for being needy and moany and so on. But why should i apologise to you for feeling this way? You didn’t have to read this far. If it’s annoyed you, but you are still here it’s at least been something to read.

Do you know what? Scratch what i said at the beginning, I’ll put this on BlogSpot after all. I’d like to say feel free to comment, or tweet me or booth me or tumbl me or send a carrier pigeon. I wonder if you’ve ever felt the same as me.  I’d like to ask for you to let me know your there. It’s up to you. That’s all i wanted to say i guess.  

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tony, is it true you nailed victoria beckham last summer?

ew gross. why would i go near any vagina, let alone hers?

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What would your dream vacation be?

i here alderaan has a good safety record...

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Nintendo 3DS pre-launch event- 06/02/11

Today I went down to London, with my mum and brother, to get my grubby hands all over Nintendo’s latest portable. I have to say I was surprised by what happened when we were let in. Luckily they let Jack come in with me, although he had no invite, and even offered to let my mum in, although she decided not to come. Once given the wristband, we were asked to wait in a room with some tech-y floor gizmo thing that “symbolised the street pass feature” or some such guff. Once that was over, we went into a room done up like some Japanese village of some kind. To guys dressed up as randoms from street fighter IV did a fighty dance thing. Then we went on to a room were two actors, with varying skill at American accents, announced the T-virus had broken out, and some zombies were wandering in the next corridor. They then escorted us through as some shadowy figures jumped out of a shed and from behind a bush. I don’t know why either of those things were there, we were inside. I guess they were trying to show how 3D could impact the experience, here we were in some real life games, and now we were going to play some real 3D ones.

I want it. I want it now.

The next room was the one I had been waiting for, the games room. 3DS’s were lined up against the wall and for 15ish minutes we were allowed to fill our boots. I played 2 tracks worth of ridge racers, and a quick go at pilot wings resort. Both of these games were good for the demo, as they showed off the sense of depth the 3D screen can give. Whilst it’s not immediately a “WOW 3D” moment, when you turn the 3d off, via the slider, you can really see the point of it. The sense of depth given to the environments really impressed me, and there were some pretty cool gimmicky bits, like confetti floating around the race track, it’s subtle, but I think it really adds to it. I’m sold on the 3D. (Although my brother said it hurt his eyes, I didn’t have this problem.

When we were moved out of this room they took us into another, with more 3DS’s about, and less moody lighting. The highlights of this room were the demo for nintendogs and cats and the augmented reality games that are (as far as I’m aware) to be included on the systems software from day one. To be brief about nintendogs, I was very impressed by how much better the graphics were looking this time around. This time the dogs really look like they have fur, and the cats, well they are fucking cute. I’m definitely getting that. Just to play with the pussy. (Chortle) but the augmented reality games, they really wowed me.

Using the cameras on the back, the immediate surrounding becomes the background for a game called face invades. You physically move your DS to aim and shoot, as baddies with photos of you as their face attack. You can even shoot holes in reality, it’s a great affect. The other game shown involved a card, which the camera recognises and uses it as a guide. From “within” this card some little characters appeared, leaving targets to shoot in the same way as before. This time though you had to walk around the table in order to see the front of the target, no points for getting it from behind. Then it got really impressive, creating some amazing affects. Suddenly a pit had appeared in the table, but not in real life, just on the screen. The table inflated and deflated on the screen and for one moment I even had to check I was still looking at the same table. Whether this will work very well on any table that isn’t bright white in colour I don’t know, but it’s a very clever little game.

That was the final room, we then left the building. I left feeling very impressed, and I really can’t wait to get my own one.

"Multiculturalism has failed"

(this blog is my reaction to this news story)

To be honest with you, my first thought when i heard this was, "what? that doesn't even make sense!"

How can Multiculturalism "fail"? It's not like it was some kind of initiative. Who said "i have invented multiculturalism, it shall create world peace!"? That's not how it happened, it was just a process, like getting old something that just happened, and there was no aim for it to fail to achieve. Lots of cultures came together. That’s all...does David Cameron really think we would be happier if it didn’t happen? Multiculturalism didn’t cause all our problems. The real reason we are unhappy is the financial sate of our government, and of the world. Without the crisis there wouldn’t be cuts, and without the cuts we wouldn't be unhappy. Is he looking for something to turn our attention on, make us forget about what he is doing to public spending? It’s a dangerous road to go down if he is.

If his real worry is as he says that we have no "national identity" i have to argue that this isn’t the case. Sure there are some who feel like they aren’t "part of the nation" but you aren’t ever going to convince everyone are you? I find it hard to believe that we have come to some kind of crisis point. It’s not like people are wandering about the streets, randomly mumbling to themselves about how they have lost all sense of national identity and how without that they feel lost and alone. Besides, is a sense of national identity such a good thing? I mean couldn’t we all get along without it? Looking at the 2 big groups who want to protect our national identity, the BNP and the English Defence League I’m quite put off the whole idea. I’m not saying all nationalists are racists, but i am saying that our ones are.

I’m afraid, Cameron, i don’t buy this idea that we need to feel part of our nation or at least any more part of it than i already do. And the extremists whom are supposedly threatening our “great nation” don't want to feel more like a part of our Britain. The ones who are a danger to us aren’t people you can convince to be more British, any more than you could convince Nick Griffin to be less racist.

To me it sounds like he is pandering to the readers of the daily mail, and the members of the English Defense League. Anything to stop talking about those cuts.

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